I see spots before my eyes!
Did you ever see a doctor?
No, just spots.
My older sister has been visiting for a few days.
She asked me what the significance was of cancer migrating to my sacrum.
A typical big sister question.
One that I had overlooked.
Disease means a lack of ‘ease.’ Just as restlessness refers to a lack of ‘rest.’
I use Louise Hay’s book for insights on mind-body connections.
16 months ago I was shell-shocked by the diagnosis of lung cancer,
I immediately looked in Heal Your Body for her insights.
Years ago, Swami Rama had explained the role of agony in the birthing of cancer.
I was curious what Louise had to say.
Cancer:
Deep hurt. Longstanding resentment. Deep secret or grief eating away at the self.
Carrying hatreds. “What’s the use?” [page 22]
Lung Problems:
Depression. Grief. Fear of taking in life. Not feeling worthy of living life fully. [page 48]
I took her insights deep into my heart.
Until the other day, I had not looked at the role of the sacrum…oh boy…
Sacrum: Loss of power. Old stubborn anger. [page 80]
Thanks Louise!
2:1 breathing and EFT were the first things I grabbed out of my emotional first aid kit.
Exhaling twice as long as I inhaled for 12+ minutes twice daily reduced the fearful frenzy
that ensued from the day of diagnosis and the less than charming prognosis.
EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) of tapping further diminished my inner trembling and confusion.
Why me? What are the deeper issues? Who can help me and how?
It is a well-known adage that “If you can spot it, you got it.”
2:1 breathing and EFT are my ‘spot’ removers.
When clients tell me everything wrong with other people in their life,
they are showing me how strong those same traits are festering within themselves.
I cannot see weaknesses in others unless I have those same unresolved weaknesses in myself.
I can’t think my way out of a prison made of thoughts.
I can’t use my emotions to escape from a prison made of emotions.
2:1 breathing and EFT unlock any prison door given time and patience.
Fellowship, journaling, prayer, meditation, self-reflection also helped.
Cryptic caches of issues keep dis-ease flowing and growing.
Removing them is top priority. Whatever I resist will persist.
Stage 4 cancer is not best addressed by slowpokes.
I have no time to waste.
For me, I teach best what I need most to learn.
My journal (which you are reading) is my instruction manual written by me and for me.
On these pages I test and reflect on what fails and succeeds in removing these spots
from my mind and my body…literally and figuratively.
The calcification and disappearance of cancer spots in my body has greatly increased
since adding these mind-body therapies with chemo, radiation, and nutritional support.
Soothing and smoothing my inner storms has been so freeing.
I attribute huge progress to them. And it all begins with a single breath.
I never realized the incredible power of spot removers in the treatment of cancer.
Getting my issues out of my tissues is happening every day. It is palpable.
Love,
Blair
Fear is selfish.
Courage is selfless.